hate

paralyses me

i hate myself

i pretend not to

but i do

i hate who i am

i hate what i do

i hate what i say

i hate what i am going to do

i hate what i am not to do

i hate my life and all that is in it

i hate this new technology

i love the old nature

i hate the politics this entails

i hate the lies of this natural world

i hate the corruption of artifice

and the destruction of blind nature

i hate all of this

i wish i were someone else

doing something else

being anyone else

but me

hate